Tomorrow Is Not Promised

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In light of some recent deaths

I felt compelled to write

Just a few lines, not too many

I only wanna shed a little light.

 

Light on the things I know to be true

I have very few loyal friends

While I associate myself with many people

I try to be real and not pretend.

 

There is no one whom I can say I hate

That is too negative an emotion to feel

It puts a weight on one’s shoulders

And leaves scars not so easily healed.

 

I want to say that I love you

To any and everyone near and dear to me

I don’t want to perish from this life

Without making sure that you believe.

 

Believe me when I say I’m sorry

For any wrong I may have done to you

Whether today, yesterday, or last year

Right my wrongs is what I must do.

 

I don’t know when my time will be

But I don’t want to leave my work undone

Yet there is so much still left to do

This race I’m still running, I haven’t won.

 

At least not yet, because I’m still PUSHing

Praying Until Something Happens

Believing that the Lord is always beside me

Doing what I love with purpose and passion.

 

If you have ever said a word against me

It’s more than okay because I forgive you

I don’t want to burden my heart with grudges

I’m gonna do what Jesus would do.

 

Too many young people are dying

One right after the other, after another

Leaving loved ones behind to mourn them

Children, moms, dads, sisters and brothers.

 

They are filled with sorrow and grief

Unsure of how they can go on

Without seeing the one they love again

Crying whenever they hear their favorite song.

 

I’ve done some things I’m not proud of

But I know my good outweighs my bad

I want to make a difference while I’m here

I want to be happy, not angry or sad.

 

When it’s my time to leave this Earth

I want to be celebrated and remembered

This old world will surely break you down

But every one of our days are numbered.

 

So no, tomorrow is not promised to any of us

We don’t know our future, only our past

Just treat people right and always be kind

And live each day as if it were your very last.

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No Regrets

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The truth is, I’ve done a lot of things I’m not very proud of in my life. But who hasn’t? No one is perfect. No one has all the answers, and no one is right all of the time. A few weeks ago I was thinking about some things that I’ve done in my past and how I overcame many obstacles that were placed in my path.  I came up with this:

instatruthWhen talking to a friend about regrets, I told him I don’t really have any regrets from things I’ve done or said in my past. This is mainly because had I not done or said some of those things, I may not be the person I am today. The things I do today help to shape and mold the person I will be tomorrow. I read a blog post recently that was featured on freshly pressed that coincided with my thoughts on regrets. How can we live with regrets and “should’a, would’a, could’as” and be content with the lives we have now? We can’t! I can’t regret the fact that I got involved with my kids’ father back in high school… To do that would mean I would also regret having my kids, which I certainly do not. Each experience in my life has taught me something. Whether it was a small, simple lesson, or a big, difficult lesson, I learned from the decisions I made. I’ve written about The Traveler’s Gift by Andy Andrews before, and I go back to what I read and learned from that book because there was so much valuable information contained within its pages. In the very first decision of the seven decisions outlined in the book that determine personal success, it is written that “I am where I am today — mentally, physically, spiritually, emotionally, and financially — because of decisions I have made.” None of us can change our past. Some of us probably wish we could. I don’t. I truly believe that I am a stronger, wiser, and better person today than I was 10 years ago. I wouldn’t have that strength and wisdom had I not experienced the things I did.

Overall, I feel in order to do better, we must want better. I may not be where I want to be in life just yet, but I’m getting there. I know what I must do in order to be successful in life and I know it’s gonna take a little more time and  a lot more effort on my part. The willingness is there, I just have to keep pushing through.

Haiku ~ Loss

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Tears stream down my face
Thinking of the love we shared
Priceless memories

Never said good-bye
Time ran out far too quickly
Words left unspoken

I think of your face
Your smile and the laugh you had
Brightened my dark days

This does not feel real
I feel like I am dreaming
But cannot wake up

I lost my best friend
Disbelief dismay and more
Many emotions

Those who knew you well
Are filled with grief and sadness
Especially me

I needed you more
Than you ever needed me
We had each other

Overwhelming fear
Is what has come upon me
Of what to do now

To live without you
When I never thought I would
I just want you back

But I dry these tears
I smile and I remember
So many good times

You would not want me
To be drowning in my tears
Feeling such heartache

I miss you so much
You are not here in the flesh
But your spirit lives

You are in my heart
You will always be right there
Never forgotten

I have to let go
Though I will be sad sometimes
Understandably

I will end with this
My love for you will not fade
We will meet again

It may not be soon
Maybe in another life
No one knows for sure

I will not forget
You brought meaning to my life
Endless gratitude

Just Love

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You make me smile when I’m feeling down,

You turn my gray skies back to blue.

You’re my sunshine on the rainy days

My love for you feels forever new.

Forehead kisses, long-stemmed roses

For no apparent reason,

In the card it reads, “Because its Wednesday.”

True love for every season.

Back rubs and foot massages,

Cuddling up in front of the fire.

Spoiling me from day-to-day

Like none other has prior.

As I lay beside you and listen

To the beat of your heart in my ear

I know this love is everlasting

It only grows from year to year.

A magical connection we both feel

Such an abundance, not a lack thereof

Of friendship, companionship and joy

But overall, most importantly there’s just love.

Mentoring

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I never had a mentor growing up. There wasn’t really anyone around who I could look up to as a role model. I see these kids nowadays who need SO much time and attention. I wish more people would volunteer to mentor children. I wish there were more organizations that did it. I have a mentee and she’s 12, she’ll be 13 this month. She’s sweet and smart, but she has had to deal with some pretty difficult things. I don’t want to divulge any specific details of her situation, but I will say that we have made a real connection. I hope to be able to follow her throughout junior high and high school.

The local YMCA here where I live sponsors a mentoring program, YMentors. I volunteered last year to become involved in the program. While I did not know what to expect, or what type of child I would get as a mentee, I was excited to be able to learn and help in any way I could. It seems to me that these days children need all the extra love and attention that they can possibly get. Some situations cannot be helped, where a parent is absent because of death or incarceration, but then there are others that you can’t help but feel sorry for the children because their situations don’t have to be the way that they are. Parents who just seem to not care about their child’s emotional mindset. I think we all want for our children – and not just our own, but all children – to succeed and to become capable independent members of society as adults. Their social skills and academics must be in good standing in order for them to be able to do this.

I know a child who suffered a great loss. Her mother was killed and she and her other brothers and one sister were left to be cared for by their grandmother (her mother’s mother). Since I’ve known her (before the tragedy), she was always happy-go-lucky, very talkative, funny… Since the incident, I’ve seen her at school while visiting my mentee and she seems to be well-liked by her peers. She laughs and talks with them and she seems happy. I don’t know how she has handled life without her mother the last few years, but I’m sure it has been rough. She had a mentor but she didn’t really open up to her. She didn’t seem to want to be in the program. I contemplated being a mentor to her, but I wasn’t sure if that would be appropriate since I knew her personally. Maybe it would have been okay… But in all aspects of the matter of mentoring; I feel that any child who is need, should have someone they can talk to. Even if its only to have someone there to listen and show that they care – which really is what mentoring is all about.

I wished I had someone to talk to growing up. But now, as an adult, I hope that I can make a difference in the life of some child who may not have the hope they need to survive. I don’t have much money, and with three children and a full-time job, I don’t have an abundance of time. But when I do make the time to spend with my mentee, I hope she can grow to appreciate it and learn something from me that she will be able to cherish and keep with her for years to come. I want to be that person in the lives of my own children as well. I know kids don’t always have the best relationships with their parents and they can’t always go to them and say, “Mom I need to talk to you about something that’s on my mind.” And the parents may not always have the answers the child is looking for. But the least any of us can do is share our life experiences with a child and to help them make better choices and decisions than we did ourselves. To mentor a child cost you nothing but a little time. But the impact one person can make in the life of a child who earnestly needs that extra special someone, is priceless.

Fabulous Friday

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Well fellow bloggers and blog readers… Its Friday! I’m off from work today and have a lot to accomplish today. I just wanna put it out there that although I have “fabulous” in front of Friday for the purpose of this post, I want to stress that everyday is and should be fabulous! Let me out line the reasons today is fabulous:

I’ve never really been one to believe in superstitions or the supernatural… Not a whole lot anyways. I like to consider myself to be a very open-minded individual so I don’t completely shut out any ideas as impossible. I said all that to say this, I do believe in miracles. One happened to me just today. I hear the Pastor at the church I am a member of say a lot that when something good happens to you, you should share it with others. What better audience but the world-wide web to share my own true life miracle with? And that miracle is simple yet one I can sometimes take for granted because it’s happened to me everyday, actually for the past twenty-nine years, six months, and eighteen days… I woke up! Now ain’t that something! Just waking up in the morning is a miracle and a blessing because there are some people who didn’t wake up today, or yesterday, and some who won’t wake up on tomorrow. That in itself makes today wonderfully fabulous indeed! Now for the remainder of my outline for today’s fabulous-ness.

  • My children all woke up in their right mind with the full functionality of all their limbs.
  • My grandmother called me to ask if I was up, which let me know she was alive and well.
  • I had electricity in my house, running water, and it wasn’t too hot or too cold which let me know my central heating and air was functioning properly.
  • I was able to talk with my son about some problems he was having at school which I hope to deal with and get resolved today.
  • I’m off from work! Which means I have a job that allows for paid vacation days which is AWESOME! I know not everyone is as fortunate to have that type of job.
  • I have money in my bank account which means I’m not in the red… Which I can sometimes be.
  • I get to pamper myself a little by getting a much-needed pedicure, and a new hair do…
  • I am able to go support our High School football team in Coffee County this evening. To do that I must have a reliable form of transportation, which I do.
  • I have great friends who I love dearly and appreciate daily!
  • Life is just GOOD!

Without all the other ‘key’ points of this blog post, just the fact that I’m still alive and well in my sound mind, makes today and everyday that I’m alive and well in my sound mind a WONDERFULLY FABULOUS day!!

Enjoy your Friday, my friends. 🙂

Monday Motto

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“Be who you are, not who others want you to be.”

So many times we live our lives to please others. We do things that we think will please our friends, our parents, our mates, even our children… In living to please others we lose sight of what it is that we want and who we are. We’re surrounded by all kinds of people throughout our day-to-day lives. Some we never really get to know personally, others we think we know but they eventually show a side to themselves that we never knew was there. Then there are those who genuinely care for us and have our best interest at heart. And we have all had those encounters with people who pretend to want to see us do well and prosper, but they secretly envy us and want what it is we have. They won’t ever admit it, but through subtle signs, we see it.

Life isn’t about dressing to impress, or living beyond your means by trying to “keep up with the Jones'”. It’s about finding out what your purpose is and fulfilling it to the maximum degree that you possibly can. I believe that. Never stop being who you are to be someone you’re not. Be true to yourself and the rest will be easy.

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